I despise organized exercise. I do not enjoy equipment, going to the gym, etc. It is not fun, it does not motivate. As much as I have tried to hype it up and psych myself into it, I cannot. As much as I would like to be that person that frequents the gym, I am not. So after gaining 40 pounds during pregnancy, not losing it all after birth, and gaining 6 pounds back after nursing had to stop… I was disappointed the extra weight didn’t just melt away magically. (Yes, I really do believe that my wanting to be thin again should be enough to make me thin again.)
I haven’t been one for super healthy eating either. Sure, healthy food graces my table and we cook most meals from scratch (or semi-scratch). But we like fried food, fatty food, non-vegetable food, and I LOVE sweets. Kind of hard to lose a little weight with no exercise and bad food.
Something magical happened though. Without even realizing it, I lost some weight. I went back to work last week and at least 6 different people commented on how thin I looked. Holy Moly! Where did that come from? I searched for the answer…
Once I thought about it, I realized it came from my son. The reason I gained weight has also become the reason I’ve lost weight. In my valiant attempts to feed him healthy meals, I inadvertently fed myself healthy meals. More fruits and vegetables and fewer fried, fatty foods made their way onto my plate. I consciously began eating like my son – healthy snacks in between meals, smaller portions so I was satisfied, not stuffed. In my hectic attempts to keep him busy and moving this summer, I kept myself busy and moving (and sweating because it was like 100 degrees every day). We walked in the park, swam in the pool, ran around the house and backyard. I lost 8 pounds this summer without really realizing it. And 8 pounds doesn’t look like much on the scale when it is still not your pre-pregnancy weight. (Amazing how one number in your head blinds you from other numbers that are just as good.) But 8 pounds is HUGE when you really pay attention to it.
So to those of you that saw the change and commented – THANK YOU! You made me smile. You helped me feel better about myself. Not because I want to be skinny. But because I want to be healthy, and feel good again. And I do. I feel really good again.